a n s w e r m e . . .

What if I dont wanna hold you anymore? I'm too tired really.. It's all that I can do up now. I've just gave everything to you.

All that my ability, my strength , my love went over toward you. Isn't that enough?

I've dropped much tears for you. I've kept your messages that went overload. I've held my anger, my sadness, my curiousity, my ego toward you. 

I've just kept my mouth not to say "I miss you, I want to see you" because I know that I would make hard time for you. 

I just keep saying "what should I do" to myself . 

I am the only one who bet a big hope for us to be together. I really won't say good bye to you, I won't look your back that went away from me. 

It's sad to know you ignore me. When you hang around by yourself or maybe with your friends, I just went blank over the time. Keep thinking you're busy or you're tired or anything that make me calm and I keep whispering 'I'm ok' . 

And you, can't you hear my heart? Can't you understand me? And the last, can't you love me? Please look at me.. Talk to me.. Answer me..